Yet inside, I believe she vacillates between a feeling of godlike omnipotence and a sense that she simply doesn't exist which, of course, is intolerable.
[まことしやか, makotoshiyaka] (adj-na) (uk) plausible (e.g. of a rumour); believable (e.g. of a story); specious (e.g. of an argument); credible (e.g. of a lie); looking very like the truth